A quick test for this is, are you good at making a good first impression or short time of friendship and then it kinda falls off with time? If yes, masking is likely in play.

Can confirm. This is my entire life.

Lucky me, I've never been 'with it'.

Fight swastikas with loss

Wait, I'm not "young people"? (37)

I don't like it, haven't really needed it, prefer public transport and have terrible motor skills.

I really enjoyed reading your story. It's honest about your faults and kind to yourself at the same time. I hope I can find a way to see my own life in a similar way.

I get it, most of my life I've had episodes that are more like yours, and my brain just found this and it doesn't want to let go for a reason. The first couple of months I thought it was the best escape, but once I realized I couldn't stop, I've been despairing. I feel like I'm going mad but more quietly rather than explosively.

Daydreaming. I'm sick of it, but I keep going there.

I like that Cory Doctorow is pretty open about having been scammed despite being quite well informed, because it really can happen to anyone. It just takes the right convergence of factors.

https://pluralistic.net/2024/02/05/cyber-dunning-kruger/

Yes, the mitochondria and all the other organelles. We're mostly egg.

And people forget that we're also the egg.

I don't see anything mentally unhealthy about what you do, sounds cool.